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"No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money. (Matthew 6:24)

It’s called fornication: when you have sex with someone you’re not married to.

That’s what I was doing.

I gave birth to my daughter out of wedlock and continued sleeping with her father. Though I professed Christianity and asked forgiveness for becoming pregnant outside of marriage, I never repented of the actual sin.

I just felt guilty about it.

We’d sleep together – and I’d get depressed afterwards.

Then, we’d sleep together again – and I’d get depressed about it.

I hated it, but I was doing nothing about it.

See, when you’ve truly dedicated yourself to following Christ you can’t continuously go against his will without something – actually someone, the Holy Spirit – constantly reminded you, “Uh-uh, this ain’t right.”

But I was so caught up in my flesh – the feel good of it.

It was so temporary, so fleeting, but I wanted it – even though I felt horrible.

I got so bad in fact that Lyric’s father refused to sleep with me. He said I made him feel bad – ad he wasn’t even a Christian!

Well, that didn’t stop the longings sexually. I still wanted to be with him and at times we were.

Then, something clicked.

I realized I couldn’t do it anymore: God wasn’t pleased.

But the urges were still there and I couldn’t figure out why. So I prayed. And God revealed to me that the urges and inclination to sin were still there because I was putting mess into my mind. Back then I was in my early 20’s and I loved me some Jodeci.

Now, Jodeci sang some of the raunchiest and romantic songs out at the time. One minute it was dirt like, Freakin You and Feenin’ – a song which basically talks about sex addiction . The next, it was a ballard like Forever My Lady.

I loved them boys.

But they weren’t any good for me.

God showed me that I couldn’t keep filling my mind and heart with that type mess AND live holy. They don’t mesh.

When I finally chose God’s way, I ceremoniously walked every secular CD I had to the garbage can outside my house. I took them one by one.

My first thought was to give them away, but God showed me that if it wasn’t good for me, they couldn’t be for anyone else.

Then, I wanted to sell them.

Again, the same answer.

So, I trashed them. All of them. One by one.

Shortly after, I was free.

The next time I got myself into a sticky overly romantic situation with Lyr’s dad, I was able to break free. I simply pushed away and said I care too much about myself to do this. And that was it. I’ve been celibate for ten years now. (Not sure if I’m bragging or asking for sympathy – just kidding.) Anyway, making that decision to follow Christ in that area set me free in many others.

At that time, I’d wanted to leave New York, get a new job and move closer to my family in Tennessee. All that happened within weeks of throwing the CD’s out and saying no to sex outside marriage.

Now it’s time for your breakthrough.

What are you listening to, watching or reading that’s hindering your decision to walk aright and Holy before God? Let ‘s get rid of it and watch God work miraculous wonders of deliverance in your life. Also, let’s put God’s word, the Bible, in.

Also, let’s support Christians who glorify God with their gifting and talents. Let’s support those who use God-given gifts to edify and build up his people. Their work does not compromise our integrity or walk with Christ.

Know that I love you each, L.

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